i wish to take back my words ; but not all




sweet innocence*





i suddenly remember so much of childhood memories.
maybe due to what i heard on air that morning bout the DJ askin people how they had once spend their most meaningful birthday at and how..






grandmother ashley going to say her grandmother story again!!
*spare me*
[bear with me]







for me.
i feel my one year old and four years old party was great.
cus the rest i cant recap much =(
according to my mum.
my 1st birthday was finally done after much problems arise from my paternal g.parents' side. *again*
*as usual*
i was told, my lil'cousin weikiat was just born on 22May1989.
and his mother had to undergo confinement then.
it was believed by my HOLY grandmother tht it is a bad sign to collide my 1st birthday with her confinement.
and so tht, the guests might disturb weikiat's baby sleep.
so i was force or my family was force out of the solution to have it done in my old Yishun house.
SEE, KOH WEI KIAT HOW FORTUNATE YOU ARE!
of cus when my grandmother is tht kind of person.
you koe; sons are better than daughters
so what if i am the eldest grandchild you ever had ; but i am still a girl.
i have to be marry off one day.
tht's ur mindset.
but i am fortunate enough tht i still had my maternal grandparents/uncles & aunties.
too fortunate tht i had 2 cakes on 13o689.
it didn stumple me upon one day few years back when i came across the photos of my 1st birthday on earth.
why isnt my paternal grandparents in and so for..
but why my dad's cousins and aunties and uncles were there but not them!.
now i realise the reason.
and tht explains why i dont wish to talk much bout my paternal grandma but of cus not my grandpa.
i love my grandpa..HE DOTES ME MORE!!!





my 4th birthday was peacefully *cross fingers* done in mac AMK.
when the mac at big mac center has the second storey. for celebrations/playground.
i am the star of the day. OF CUS!
but i remember i weeped tht day.
for some simple reason.
a lil' choco cookie on my cake was suppose to be my bite when someone *cant rmb who was it*
took it. and my mum had to let it go cus the child is my guest.
i cry out loud, i rmb.
everyone was like, birthday girl crying HUSH HUSH!
attending birthday parties around that time in mac is so popular!!
tht i got so much/many invitations thou`

























i was toking to dumb the other day bout my mischievous act i did to my cousin - Siong


cus he knows i wouldn be wanted by any guy due to this character of mine.
i always hang around with the Ho brothers cus they stayed just one floor above gran's.
and i was taken care by gran till i was primary 4






we played.
i act like one of their brothers.
but i know they always treat me like their sister (:









and sad to say, being a girl.
i am always bully by Siong.
thou we are 8 months apart.
then his bro will always help me defend me.
thanks wee (:
and i got him just desserts the other time during the first day of CNY.
the 3 of us were takin photos.
and i choose to stand on the chair behind Siong.
and upon the photo taken, i grabbed some hair of Siong and pull
the photo was developed and Siong was crying.
devil me.




it was kind of short memory for my maternal grandpa and me.
i remember how he treat me

he even tried to make me smile by wanting to bring me down to the playground
but i always want him to get me down asap.
there are times when he brought me down ; and he was half-naked.
tht's is how demanding i am then x)





but all i could rmb much was the sending off to airport the other time.
i was hugging on to my bottle of ribena for every photo i took with him,
but how did me as a 2 or 3 years old kid know tht tht is my last time tht i will ever see him.
): oh shyt. i am crying* hais..
referencing from my mum again, when he bid me goodbye, i just look at him and did nth.
she even said, maybe i had the 6th sense tht he's leaving us - tht i am unwilling to wave goodbye.
i miss him despite the vague memories.






i grew up.
so was my storage for childhood memory.
my primary school memory were so vague.
i only know i took part in syf'99 and won the gold award for my school.
i was one of the worst dancer then.
maybe tht the reason why i step down from dance then.
i know i made lots of friends there.
(:
and some teachers are there bound to spoilt my day with their non-stop adventure.





however, my last year in school was extremely fun!
when MFPS moved to their new campus, i was like been to a new house.
a large castle x)
the school by the park.
school canteen of 2 levels and great foodssssssssssss!
library of 5 storeys.
the p6 camp was fun.
i love my class- 6j.
where fun joy and laughter were present everyday.




i still rmb the times when hazel, huilian & i walked from school to yck mrt.
trying to save money by not taking the bus to yck mrt.
we always stop by the roads to look at flowers and sort.
sweet innocence*




and i got times i just accompany them sit all the way to smb, just to catch a glimpse on how my new home (which i am staying now) had been built.
my depart was kinda sad.
wonderful memories...










secondary school was as fun.
band. clinching gold twice in 2 consecutive years.
the first year was very warm-hearted.
when you see the 69 of us sitting outside VCH shouting for gold.
and the moment it was announce GOLD.
we cried.
hugging my best friends was the first thing i did.
second was just a lil disappointment.
we might be missing by a lil. bit to hit GWH.
but we didn.
the end of sec 5 trip to penang was extremely fun.
DUE TO SHOPPING!


(: (: (: (: (: (:






i could still rmb how innocent i was then.
almost every Saturday after band
my librarian in partner, Ivy will join me outside 711 to glup on cup noodles for lunch.
and of cus a cup of slurpee.
(:







band performance.
istana
balloon hat
penang trip
the band tht i grew up with.
will never be replaced.







of cus i had my 17th birthday done in Malaysia.
with dunkin donuts as my birthday "Cake" by mr edwin chew.
(:
but anyway i got to thank 5a1 geo students tht night.
(:




not forgetting my friends who had spend my 5 years birthday with me in sec school
(i am not going to repeat myself tht i spend 5 years of my birthday in sec. school with the school)
ok i did it again.




her death was something tht none of us expect.
and tht was the first time i ever had someone so close to me pass away.
other than my granddad of cus.
281o04.

but somehow i regret half of my choice.
yeah. i made great friends here.
SPDC. my bowlers and all.
sweet innocence*